A Whole Lotta Soul Searching

What the heck happened to me? Where have I been? What have I been doing?

Well let's see, I fell off the face of the Earth into a big mess of a life. Don't worry though, just minor set backs, nothing too major. There were some life changing moments, such as the death of my uncle, followed by the death of a great uncle. It seems every time I thought I was on the mend something else would come up. Or would it? I truly think I tried to find any reason to not do what I know I needed to do.

I quit working out, my eating has gone down hill and I'm back up to around 251, but I've been able to maintain it. That's something right? But seriously, my bow business took off and I've been working hours upon hours making hair bows and trying to keep up with everyday life. I booked several photography gigs and the editing kept me busy as well. So it sounds like a good thing right? Not so much.

After much soul searching we decided that I'm going to cut back to custom orders only for my bow business. I can't give it up because I love doing it, but I definitely can't ignore my children for it either. I honestly feel like that's what I was doing and that in itself makes me feel like horrible mother of the year.

I also would really love to start focusing on my photography business more, as well getting back to the basics of me; eating healthy, exercising again, etc. Now I'm not one for New Year's resolutions. Why? Because I NEVER STICK TO THEM...

But I do need to re-dedicate myself to getting back to being healthy. We've even shortly discussed the idea of signing up for The Biggest Loser. However, I don't know how that would work with my hubby's current schedule.

So I apologize to those that are/were following me and if I left you feeling abandoned. But I'm sure you understand how things can get crazy with a family. :D