A Day Late & A Dollar Short

I weighed yesterday a.m.

I would have posted it sooner but I was off to a photography class and then we had some family obligations...Let's just say my food was lacking, as in I didn't eat enough. We were just on the go and I wasn't feeling hungry, so I didn't eat. You can spank me later. ;-)

The Best Damn Broccoli EVER

Tonight I tried out a couple of new recipes...sorry I didn't take any step by step pictures but it was late and I didn't have time to grab the camera.

First off I tried Gluten Free Chicken Fingers. They turned out okay, but I believe that was my fault. It calls for 1-2 inches of coconut oil in the pan and I was a cheap a$$ (Since Virgin Coconut Oil is $40/jar) and only used a few tablespoons. So they didn't exactly "fry" correctly and most of the toppings fell off anytime I went to turn a piece. BUT, in the end they still had great flavor even if I had to scrape the good stuff out of the pan and drop it on top of the chicken.

Next for my side I went with a new roasted broccoli recipe I found via Pinterest from the website of Amateur Gourmet. OH MY BUH-JESUS! They are not lying that this is the best broccoli you will EVER have. I usually have a hard time choking down broccoli unless it is slathered in cheese or some other sauce. The recipe is adapted from Barefoot Contessa's, Back To Basics cookbook.

Non-Fried Beef & Been Chimichangas

I've never had a chimichanga. Does that surprise anyone? LOL. So I wasn't sure about this recipe, but it had several great factors going for it.

1) It's a SIMPLE recipe, not too many ingredients!
2) It sounds good, and tastes even better. Just the right amount of spice. But if you can't handle spice I'd forego the crushed red pepper flakes.
3) You can prepare several servings of the meat ahead of time & just reheat it as needed to make another chimichanga for your next meal!
4) It's NOT FRIED! Apparently the real-deal is fried, again not ever having one I didn't know that, but I'm all for non-fried food.

New Plan

I have been trying to write this post for three days now...three. It's not that I didn't want to write it, it's just that life has been keeping me occupied. ;0)

Friday was grocery day. This time we had a different approach, or shopping list. Fresh veggies and fruit. While we're not strangers to the concept buying the copious amounts of fresh food was a first. See all the pretty food?

The Mental Side of Town

Last night I had a break down, not a break through, but a break down. I sobbed/cried uncontrollably at the thought of hitting the one year mark and still being at square one. I Google a ton of ideas, gimmicks and in the end had to go to bed. I just couldn't take much more.

My mental state seems to be in a very unstable place right now & I'm finding myself very, very hormonal. It dawned on me today...my son has been slowly weaning the last month and I've been dealing with the affects of attempting to dry myself up. So factor in that my hormones are changing/decreasing and what have you and the fact that I realize I will never nurse another child of my own...and I'm a wreck. We worked so hard to make everything happen so that I could breastfeed, here we are shy of two years later and it's nearly run it's course. While I'll be glad to call my breasts my own again, they aren't the same. But hey, who's aren't after having children?

Another issue I've tossed around is the fact that I feel guilty for letting myself slide backwards after making so much great progress. I let the eating habits fall into the toilet. I've gone backwards and I think I'm really pissed at myself which causes me to cry about it. I guess you could call me a cry baby, but whatever. At least I'm trying to face my demons. I'm trying to figure out where to go from here...

The Daily Struggle

So...here we are 4 days into the new year. I.need.help. I cannot for the life of me figure out nutrition. There I said it, it's out in the open. Now what?

I've looked into Daily Burn, which sounds like an okay idea, but...they want money. That's the problem with this damn world. No body will help anybody achieve their goals without wanting to make a buck. And on the other side of the coin, the old cliche "you get what you pay for." I guess if I can't pay for it, I can't get it, huh?

So I'm reaching out to you, my few followers... where do you turn for nutrition advice? If you've been there/done that, what worked for you and why? Have you found a fail proof plan? Any advice will be appreciated.Otherwise I feel doomed to keep repeating the same vicious cycle over and over and over.

And speaking of nutrition... I made up a new recipe tonight. Not too shabby.

Pomegranate Sesame Chicken

  *1 Tbsp Sesame Seeds (0 cal per 1/4 Tbsp)
  *2 Tbsp Heavenly Olive Oils & Vinegars - Pomegranate Balsamic Vinegar (5 cal per Tbsp)
  * 1.5-2# BS Chicken Breasts (110 cal per 4oz)

In a Medium/Large Bowl mix the sesame seeds and olive oil.You could leave the breasts whole or use tenders, but being lazy I didn't have time to unthaw the chicken completely so I sliced it in to equally sized pieces.  

Marinade the chicken, in the fridge, for at least a half an hour. If in a pinch toss and let sit while you warm the pan.

Toss the chicken and marinade into a pan heated to Medium. Cook, turning occasionally until no longer pink. Do not over cook.

We paired it with steamed sweet peas and brown rice. Yum!

It was Bubba approved!

Jan 1

Day one SUCKED. The first thing in my mouth was a beer followed by a donut shortly after midnight. I followed that up with copious amounts of crap food. No exercise, just stressing about everything going on right now...